Sometimes I think I'm tired but maybe I'm just bored. This last weekend was full, varied, physical and I felt 'really' tired last night and do tonight. Sleepy eyes now (10pm) plus feeling physical effects of biking in arms and legs. Feels good. Bumped into a friend of a friend the other week - she was a bit down and unmotivated and said 'the thing is, the less you do, the less you want to do'. So true. We can get stuck in ruts - unmotivated, too much to do and unsure where to start... So am thinking 'the more you do, the more you want to do'. Left 2 more charity bags today - different shop each week - plus dumped some rubbish. So my declutter is on the way and is making me do and want to do 'stuff' in the evening. Bodes well for my lighter, brighter life project over the summer...
Monday, 28 May 2012
Feeling tired - proper tired...
Sometimes I think I'm tired but maybe I'm just bored. This last weekend was full, varied, physical and I felt 'really' tired last night and do tonight. Sleepy eyes now (10pm) plus feeling physical effects of biking in arms and legs. Feels good. Bumped into a friend of a friend the other week - she was a bit down and unmotivated and said 'the thing is, the less you do, the less you want to do'. So true. We can get stuck in ruts - unmotivated, too much to do and unsure where to start... So am thinking 'the more you do, the more you want to do'. Left 2 more charity bags today - different shop each week - plus dumped some rubbish. So my declutter is on the way and is making me do and want to do 'stuff' in the evening. Bodes well for my lighter, brighter life project over the summer...
Saturday, 26 May 2012
'It's kinda messy up here!'
'Sunshine is a welcome thing. It brings a lot of brightness' |
SUNSHINE = spirits lifted - I may not be overlooking a beautiful ocean sunrise but I'm going with it. I feel like some of the dark stuff may be lifting. Unlike my usual 'at home' weekend - which generally consists of failed good intentions and lots of TV/DVD action - this weekend so far I have been on the radio (I do an occasional guest chat slot on the local station); cycled to the radio offices and back (not too far but a start!) - sunburn to my forehead though - a new bike/sun hazard for me! At home in the afternoon I went crazy with the secateurs! Very calming. I have only decking with a variety of pots but there is a huge rose bush
Saw lots of these! |
Went trimming crazy with these! |
next door which happily overhangs my fence - the house is empty at the moment so I went round and trimmed out all the dead stuff and twiggy bits. Then I tidied dead stuff in my pots; re potted my clematis that's somehow still alive - it's now in a deeper pot so hoping for good flowering this year. I planted out my tiny Christmas Tree! I had a miniature one last December - about 30cm high - it's been in the kitchen window ever since
with wine glass charms as decorations - My 'Not Really Christmas Tree' Tree! So again - a bigger pot and let's see what happens! Had a tidy and scrubbed and hosed the garden furniture. Did my washing and line dried it. Cleaned all downstairs and filled a bag for charity. Am aiming for a bag per week as part of my declutter plan.
At 5ish my neighbours returned with their grandchildren - A (boy aged 7ish) and E (girl aged 5ish). E seems to love me and happily comes in my house - knocks on the window and always wants my attention. So I'm cleaning and doing and just about to do some windows - in she wanders and starts a bit of dusting. Boredom kicks in and she asks 'Can I see what's upstairs?'. Knowing it's chaos - mid clean and declutter and I am not a completer-finisher!! - I try to dissuade her. Eventually I say 'okay - just don't trip on anything and take care on the stairs'. 5 seconds she shouts 'Hey - it's kinda messy up here!'. From a 5 old year old!! Great. But I remind myself this is a 'work in progress'...
Want one of these - passion flower |
Weight - good news I think I am consciously and subconsciously prepping for my 'Lighter Life' abstinence. Decided to use up freezer and cupboard stuff so no temptations when I hit the programme - it's working plus I just seem to be wanting to eating less. Could be the better weather? Could be lifting spirits? Could be sub conscious prep? I am taking it as a sign that I WILL be successful in my summer weight loss for health and confidence.
TFR x
Wednesday, 16 May 2012
Oh man!!!!!
Well... I did have 3 published posts since last weekend. Which I deleted in error. & it seems possible to retrieve via lots of complicated cache manipulation but no simple 'undo' click option within blogger. I. am. frustrated.
So here's what you missed...
Thanks for reading
bee x
So here's what you missed...
- I am contemplating contemplating the LighterLife (LL) diet.
- I need to lose weight - health and vanity reasons. More about WHY! here
- LL seems extreme but I think I need it - again WHY! here
- I met the LL counsellor last weekend - would involve abstinence from actual food for 2 months combined with therapy to crack my behaviour with and around food.
- My BMI is almost 32; it could be 26 by the time I go on hols in August. Ultimate target would be BMI 24. I am 5'7 and 14st 4lb.
- Am also investigating the Cambridge Weight Plan - like LL without the therapy.
Decisions decisions... I intend to use this blog to track my LL (or CWP) journey with all it's challenges and my results.
bee x
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